Overspending. It’s a compulsion, it’s impulsive. I want, I want, I want. Why can’t I look around me and see all the cool stuff I already have? Why can’t I draw, or play my violin or guitar, like I keep wanting to do, but just can’t manage to? The paralysis that comes with choice, with too many options. I want to do too many things, so I remain inert, I do nothing at all.

Then I feel guilty. Guilty for not doing anything, guilty for playing puzzle games on my phone for hours and hours, showing up late because I lost track of time, spending money I shouldn’t spend or don’t even have.